I am late to things.. and can be blind as blind can be when I am focused on other things.  Hey!  I’m Human!!!

But to excuse my French, what the heck is going on?!?!?!?!  I wake up to finally catch up on things after drama happening to my little group that had me concentrating on other things, and it seems like there is something going on that I don’t know about.  Again, see above for blind notice.  But if someone is being picked on, this is so wrong.

For instance.  No one has probably ever read my first fanfiction.  I cringed when I went back with a friend to redo it to send it to a fan who I love dearly.  Due to health, she is not around as much, but she was the first fan who really cared about me, and I honor her all the time.  Shoot, I published a story on my FanFiction of hers when her account was being attacked by people.

I also know how hard it is to press that post button for the first time on FanFiction or even WordPress.  I’ve been there, and I panicked enough I cried thinking of how people were going to attack me.  Yeah, I had a few bad experiences with another site and trying to publish there that put me behind a year on posting fiction.  And you know what?  I still panic slightly when I hit publish on a new story.  And frankly, when I publish even new chapters.  It will always be there.  Even when I have an awesome group of betas who preread my stuff, and even when I tease stuff out.  But it does get better.  I got brave enough to start a brand new crossover.

But you know what?  The people in this fandom, in my Alice 2009 fandom, and the others I write for, are some of the most awesome.  But I have to admit that the TB/SVM fandom is the most supportive I know.  Most of my betas are from there.  Because of this, I suggested to make an award for the fandom.  The turnout for this was amazing and beyond anything I ever dreamed of!!! The show and books are over, and we are one of the BIGGEST noncanon fandoms out there.  Seriously.  The canon pairings are not even really in the 10% range.  Do you know how amazing this is??!?!  And we… the readers and the writers, are responsible for this anomaly.  I am so proud of us all.  But then… We do have the Viking!! But to have a whole fandom majorly about a pairing that does not officially exist?  Yeah.  You guys rock.  And I would think this would give you even more fuel to write the fiction we should have had.  Or do what the rest of us do, use their mess-ups to make awesome stuff to read!! It’s personally my way to say F.U. to the ones who ignored us.

As for Banners… :snorts: Has anyone seen my originals?  I thought they were the BOMB.  And now I shake my head on it.  And I am still playing on doing them.  I learn, and I ask.  I buy programs to teach me.  And I do it to entertain myself and hopefully you guys too.

But the biggest teacher of all?  It’s called experience.  And you only get it when you take chances.  I took a chance one day and wrote a chapter for Alice, and here we are today.   My family does NOT support me, except my husband.  He patiently sits and listens to me talk, he allows me to do this to get better so I can write a book, supporting me.  My mom tries, but she likes different fandoms, and cannot understand what is going on, but she would be the last to say anything.  But nobody else cares.  They aggressively don’t care.  It happens.

And flamers, trolls and so forth?  Yeah.  Ignore them.  If they can’t say anything to you with their name, then they don’t deserve the time of your day.  It hurts.  Oh man, does it hurt when it comes in.  But I have to decide if they are worth it.  And frankly, if they can’t leave their name, then nope.  They are attacking someone from the safety of sitting behind their electronic device.  I’m most likely never going to meet them!  If they can’t give me a name, then hell no do they get consideration.

I got a comment from someone disliking All I Want yesterday. But they signed in and told me.  It’s their opinion.  And I am frankly proud that they did it!

And for the fandom dying?  That is up to everyone who reads this.  I am not stopping writing.  I have some new ones up my sleeve, I am working to finish some of the favorites.  I do admit our fandom seems to be losing our greatests to outside reasons, and that saddens me.  But for them to leave due to negativity?  Well, if you are having that issue, I welcome you to come talk to me.  I’m on Facebook almost everyday, and am more than happy to talk to you.

I have no problem in raising hell.  I point to when a good friend of mine was getting her stories stolen.  Yes, it was by the same person who tried to steal ED, but that was yanked very quickly out of her repertoire.  Instead I went to bat for her.  And I will do it for any friend of mine.  It’s how I roll.

You guys as the fans, you make the difference. Not us writers.  You.   You decide if you are going to read the stuff, to keep encouraging writing.  Think about it.  If a writer wants to write, but no one reads, they get discouraged and often leave.  If you are interested, most will keep writing.  It’s just how it works.  Not many people write and get nothing out of it.  Unless you are me, and write because you like reading your own stories.  Not many do!

So, again, I may be missing the point of this by a couple of miles, but this is what I am getting from all this.  I am even doing this on my blog, which I am sorry, will not show up if you click on it.  I will copy and paste this for the reblog.  Shoot… I will reblog this and then blog it on my site.  This is not something that should miss anyone.

And if any of you are the opnes putting down those souls that are willing to take that chance to share our inner selves with you, well…. All I can say is F.U.!  When have you put yourself on the line for other to judge you?

To see the original post that inspired this rant: https://idream3223.wordpress.com/2015/02/04/make-art-that-you-enjoy/

Now decide what you want to do.  I said my piece.

Kittyinaz