*Thanks again to the ladies of Facebook that share these wonderful pictures with me. I appreciate it!
So I know I promised a chapter to you guys. My Beta came through for you guys and gave a chapter for What If. New Chapter <~Click here for it. It has been up for awhile, but I have not been able to notify about it.
See, I got sick. And I thought it was all in my head. Until my husband was in bed groaning and asking, “How can you survive this pain???????”
Yep. I guess it was the flu or something, and it REALLY sucks. I go out a freaking day and came back sicker than a dog.
Add to that a nose that hurts to touch, and you have a miserable person. And when I am sick, I easily get angry. And this wonderful piece of crap computer, was pissing me off. Yeah. It still is. It would decide that it will allow me into iTunes when it wants to. And typing anything? Yeah, I lose myself in the story and come back to find it moved the cursor and made it a huge chapter of crap.
Oh yes, don’t forget sitting for a long while makes me still ill, so no fancy links and stuff on the chapter. But the pic in the chapter is one of my very own.
So luckily, we got the money for the new computer, and just have to wait for it to clear to get the new one. Then I will only use this one rarely. After I transfer the hard drive and then crash this one first.
But last nite, I had this weird dream, about the Twilight movie and the whole Ballet Studio scene. And lets just say mine was NOT the one you read about or watched. It just would NOT leave me alone. So I sat down to write it, taking a looooooong time to make sure the computer didn’t make garbage. It is a different twist. And one that I can pick up when I finish stuff. It is unedited, raw. I didn’t do the precise work I would do to match up moves and such. But it gives an idea. Please drop over to Possible Stories and give me your thoughts. It’s called When I Pretend.
I will try to work on In The End. I really am not giving up on it, I love it and can’t begin to let you know how much I miss it. Even though the last chapter I wrote got scrapped because of the mess. It made me VERY angry. I hate when that happens.
Also look for a surprise on an Alice story over at FanFiction. Someone’s B-Day is this week and she begged for an update. So I may update one of those.
So I am trying to help another WordPress user with their site. And I am clicking on things to try to see the settings I have to try to help them out. And lo and behold, I found a way to change my Header. Yeah!!! For some unknown reason, they don’t have it under themes. No they have it somewhere else. But above was one of the choices I found, but my background just didn’t look quite right for me to keep it permanently.
Yes, I am going to try to work on editing the next chapter. I admit, I have not been feeling good, and quite frankly, I am getting pretty sick and tired of being sick. Thankfully it is not the same thing that plagued me for 18 years, but I feel not good and can barely move without feeling sick. Hopefully it is one of two things, one I really don’t care about and the other would make me happier than a pig in mud. (A little southern saying for you guys… what can I say after 10 years, some of it sinks in.)
My Beta has also been working some freaking LONG hours, and I have told her that her health is more important than chapters. And I stand firm on this. No one’s health should be worth more than a story.
I am off to take some yucky pills to help settle my stomach and once that is fine, I will be back on here. I have alot of stuff to be doing. Just wish my computer can keep up!!! It keeps freezing all the time. I cannot wait to get the new one. Maybe it can keep up with me typing at least!!!!!!
I am getting back to the world. I will never forget the wonderful man my Grandfather was, and cannot wait until I get to meet him in Heaven and tell him all about what is going on here. Hopefully that will be a long time so I have lots to tell him.
I have been working. A little at a time, but I have been working. I finished Chapter 18 last night and am just looking for the right song for the next chapter. I have managed to jerk myself back to the storyline I was trying for. Finally! Now we just have to get through the rest of the story until we get to where I want to be and then it all takes off. By now, for me at least, I have brought in alot of the major characters or mentioned. Some you guys won’t see until Chapter 17, but they are all here and ready. The biggest character is still hiding, even from me. So we will get to them when they are ready I suppose.
I will try to work on the chapter for the week soon. As I said, I am making myself write since it is making me feel better, and for the simple fact that I am bored. I would like to move on with What If, because I love that story as well. I also would like to get to work on Tea Shoppe since that one is the closest to finishing. I owe those readers an end and I would like to give them that.
So for all those with the well wishes and such, Thank You. I still easily cry, and I am terrible at reviewing since I am not sitting at the computer as much. The iPad and I have decided it hates WordPress. Either the App or the site itself. I can like, but anything about having to sign into WordPress hangs the stupid thing up. Grrr!! And I wanted to leave a comment on so many stories!!
And my computer? We are praying and hoping for it to last. It is fine now, I have a cooling pad underneath it, a fan that blows on it from the outside. the issue, it is heating up, the fans are failing it. Soon, I should have the new one and then it will be off to the races with this site and many other things. I will have dual monitors, which will help if you ever seen how many windows I layer on my screens. Plus I am hoping to get office 2013. Scene it, and it is awesome. So more Databasing. Plus maybe a job?? Who knows!!!
Right now at this moment, I am thinking up stuff and my imagination is going off wild. I cannot wait until I close more stories. I have so many still being a WIP that I don’t feel that it would be fair to not finish them. So we will get to them, and get them done before I get back to some original stories in AU worlds. Eric has become an ALP to me, and I love both characters. They help my imagination go wild.
Also, expect some changes to the site. I am pretty upset with the fact I cannot change the photo at the top. I thought I could and that it would be freaking awesome since I can make it work through the seasons. That is the ONLY reason I am upset with this theme. But at the same time, it is harder than heck to change your themes and to put everything back in place. So we will see.
I will also be looking to adding more favorites to the lists. I REALLY need to add The Arrangement. LOVE that story!!!
So please be patient with me, I am dealing with the grief. I haven’t hit anger yet, and not so sure why I would since it is not his fault he is gone, it’s the disease. So stay safe, and I will catch up with you guys soon!
Yesterday the world lost a comedian, a man who loved to make his family laugh.
Yesterday my family lost a loved one, a man who showed his love to each and everyone of us is his own fashion.
Yesterday I lost one of the men who helped define me, a man who patiently listened to me and took the time to help in whatever fashion he could.
Yesterday that man remembered all the above.
As most of you know my Grandfather passed away yesterday during his sleep. I will tell you that was one of the hardest phone calls for my husband to take since he had gotten to know my grandfather well.
My Grandfather has been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and during the past month, had gotten worse. I am lucky that I got to spend a week with him, and have some good memories to replace the last one I had of him which frankly scared me.
Yesterday I cried with the rest of the family before the Great Granchildren were brought over. It is truly amazing to me the wonders of them. They were all too young to realize what is happening. David was fascinated by the fish my Aunt had, and prompted the first real laugh not tinged by grief when one of the fish took of to intimidate the shark. His screams of “Fish! Fish! Fish!!” made us all laugh. And for the rest of the day, Caidence, David, Jaxom and Baby Luke who was born only a week earlier, cheered up that household.
Last night when we had gotten home, I cried. I told my husband it seems like it just didn’t end and that I was hardly keeping up with it. I had forgotten for a second that Bear was dead and was looking forward to being home and bring greeted by him. I also had thought I had grieved when I realized my Grandfather was gone and the man who looked like him was a shell of the awesome person I called Grandfather.
This was not true. I had held out hope in my heart that there would be a miracle cure that would give me back my Grandfather. I just had to be patient. So when that call came at 2am, I was shocked. He was gone. No second chances, no miracle drug.
I went with the family to the hospital, but refused to see him, wanting my memories to be of him alive. I was outside and listened to my family breakdown.
Afterwards, we went to my Aunt’s house in a state of shock. Making fun of everyone’s alarms for them getting to work, my husband winning with the earliest. Then became the chore of calling in.
The rest of the day passed in a haze, old friends reconnecting in the tragedy, our family finding out how rich we are in friends and family.
Even though I posted here that he had passed away and that I will not be posting a chapter this week, I admit I still had not admitted it. When I was asked many times if I had let my family know, the Larricks, I finally admitted it. I wrote the email fine, but putting it out on Facebook, was the last line.
Alzheimer’s is a nasty disease. It actually makes you lose the person twice. And like me, many retain that hope that something will come along and give you back the person it took. My family has requested in lieu of flowers being sent, that donations be made to Alzheimer’s foundation in his name. There is a tribute page we have made for him, Alzheimer’s Association to make it easier. Our family originally did a goal for a $100. We have raised that in hopes that we can help other families not to go through this.
Thanks for listening to me, and I really appreciate all the wishes for my family. Right now, I am trying to get back to normal, but there is no normal for me right now. So I will settle with dealing.
I don’t know when I will be posting or editing. At 2:00 am this morning we got the phone call saying my grandfather has passed away. Obviously my family and I are devastated. It is a blessing, but it’s sad for all of us.
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