Chapter 17 I’m On My Knees

Chapter 17 d

Pre Edit Count – 2,100 Words

Song I listened to for this chapter: Bittersweet Symphony by The Verve


In the circle, Godric’s eyes snap open, and for a second there is pure sadness on his face. Then he sees Sookie, and tells her, “I was not accepted.”


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Sookie freezes, then the words sink in regarding the moment Godric left them, and she holds her hand to her mouth as a sob escapes. She shakes her head at the man she had watched die in front of her. “He does. He forgave you, and gave you a second chance, Godric. Eric needs you, I need you. Please stay,” she begs him, knowing they need him more now than ever.

Godric looks from her face to see Eric behind her, and behind his Son he notices the Tree of the Kingdom he helped Eric to take when he rose as a Youngling. Then his eyes travel around the circle as he looks upon his bloodline. He can see all of them, and can feel them through the Bond he has with Eric. The Bond is now open once more; Eric is no longer hiding who he really is, and his Family is truly at his side once again.

Then his attention returns to his eldest and he asks, “Why did you use your one opportunity to bring me back? Wouldn’t it be better to call back one of your own? What happens if Frey and Arathorn fall in battle?” Or the blonde at your side remains unspoken since it normally has to be a vamp – but there is a rumor that a Bonded Mate has been brought back…

Swallowing hard, Eric tells him, “Because you are worth it. I need you, Godric. Gods, do I need you.” He will do anything to keep Sookie alive, and he admits to himself that if he himself died, so would she.

Smiling at his Child, Godric gently shakes his head. “No. You have your Mate. You do not need me.” His face shows how happy he is that Eric has found his Mate, but at the same time, he yearns to be back in the place where he had been. It had been nothing, but it had been so peaceful.

“Eric has found the man responsible for killing his family.”

That one statement changes everything, as it is meant to do. This lets Godric know that things are not the same as they were when he left; the game has changed.

Godric’s eyes flash back to Sookie. His face hardens, and he asks, “Does he still live?” The options are flying through his head about what this means.

Growls fill the room from the Family, and Eric nods his head. “Yes,” he bites out; he blames himself for this.

With this information, Godric looks down to the floor, his face thoughtful. “Do you need me to help you defeat the monster?” He wonders if, when this matter has been dealt with, he could fade back into the blackness of nothing once again.

“For that, and for so much more, my Lord.” Frey answers him, his voice rough. He is not able to handle this Godric. The ancient vampire before him is nothing like the strong youthful vampire he had known when he was younger, the one who helped guide his steps along with his Fader’s, the one whose quiet strength was enough to make him feel that nothing could faze him.

With tears still falling down her face, Sookie begs Godric, “Please stay. We need you. It has been foretold and you don’t want your line to be destroyed, do you Godric?” Eric’s arm is around her, and she feels his support, but she can feel the pain he is suffering from having to listen to them beg his Maker, his Fader, Broder, Son… to stay with them.

Godric looks at her. “But we don’t belong here.” He repeats the line that explains everything he has come to believe. While Eric may have found his Mate, so few of their kind do, and there was nothing to hold him here, not really. They are parasites on the human race.

She feels Eric’s pain and remembers this conversation from the rooftop. “If you didn’t, then you would be gone. God wouldn’t do that.” She now says what she wishes she had said before, when they were on that roof together. She hadn’t felt confident enough to argue with Godric then, but knowing that her Mate would suffer with the loss of his Maker forever is enough to give her the courage to argue with the ancient vampire now.

He shakes his head. “But this is the same God who refused my entrance into his Kingdom. He is cruel,” he answers bluntly, but at least he is conversing with her.

More tears falling down her face, Sookie shakes her head. “Godric, what is a day?” She remembers thinking about this when she was younger, and when she had asked Gran about it. The question had made the older lady sit and think, and then finally admit that Sookie had a valid point, so she decides to apply this same logic to the situation now facing her with Godric…but this time it’s for a far more worthy cause than simply settling her mind on the matter.

He cocks his head. “It is a revolution of the Earth, twenty-four hours. Your science has proven this.” He wonders where the little blonde will be taking this argument.

She shakes her head. “But what would be a day to God? To a Being who has no sense of time? One who is not restricted to the same idea of time that we have?”

Puzzled, Godric just stares at her. “I am not understanding,” he finally admits. Different ideas on what makes a day?

She inhales and ignores the hitch in her breathing to answer, “Consider your sense of time, does it not mean that you think of things in a different time frame than I do? That you can plan for decades, centuries even? And is a day the same on Earth as it is on Mars, or Jupiter, or even Pluto?” She asks these questions hoping to make him think about what she means.

He nods, trying to understand where she is going with this.

She asks him, “Godric, have you ever read the Bible?” Here is where she is going to push it – to make him think instead of just giving up.

“I have.”

She shifts slightly, and lets Eric to pull her back to him to allow her some respite from standing so long in one place. Sookie informs Godric, “One of the big debates is evolution versus the Bible. You probably have heard about it since it was huge before you guys came out of the coffin. But why is there a debate? Why can’t both sides be right?” She lays the whole idea out before him, just as she had with Gran.

He blinks at her.

Seeing his reaction, she sighs, knowing he will need the explanation. “They say the Earth was created in seven days,” she states, starting from the beginning.

Godric nods as he watches this young human in front of him. She interests him, and he wonders if the way her mind works is one of the things that drew Eric to her.

Taking his interest seriously, Sookie asks him, “So what would be a day to God?” This one question is the crux of her entire argument, the basis on which her hope for saving Godric depends.

He blinks, then blinks again. He opens his mouth, then closes it as he thinks through her question.

While he thinks, Sookie throws in, “And if billions of years can pass in a day, then why do you think he denied you entry when maybe you were only there a second or two?” It is simple. They say the Earth was made in seven days, but who determined the length of those days before God parted the Heavens? It is simple, yet profound.

He swallows, then finally nods. “I accept your point.” Godric is intrigued by this blonde Mate of his Son. He is looking at her in a completely different way now, and wonders about her.

She sighs, her hope building as she makes her point to the man before her who holds their salvation in his very hands. “And didn’t God wipe the Earth in the past, and even now there are species dying out. If he wanted your species to die, he would have done it.”

Godric tells her with a small smile, “He promised not to.” He is looking forward to where she will take this.

She cannot help but laugh – this is a common misconception. “He told humans that he promised not to flood them again, not that he would never wipe them out, and he made no separate promises for you guys. You belong here as much as I do, as much as the birds in the sky and the lions on the prairies do. If not, God would have never allowed you to become.” Then she presses a hand to her face as she thinks about how much she would miss Eric if he had not become a vampire and had not been here for her.

Feeling her pain, Eric wraps his arm around her and says, “I am here, Lover. I will always be with you.”

Godric watches the two of them, and he smiles. “Eric?” He has an idea that he might like getting to know this woman who has so obviously stolen Eric’s heart. If only she had been part of his…

Eric looks up from his Mate and, with tears falling down his face, meets Godric’s eyes. “Master?”

The ancient vampire laughs. Shaking his head, he tells his Son, “I am not the master. Why did you call me back?” He wants to hear his Child’s reasoning, not just Sookie’s.

Eric is holding onto Sookie tightly since she needs his support because of the loss she is feeling, but he also needs to be able to plead with Godric. He is torn between what his mind and his heart are demanding for him to do.

Thankfully, he feels a sudden tap on his shoulder. Brandon is there for Sookie, and draws her away to the side. Eric falls to his knees before his Maker. “Because I need you. There is so much happening; I took back my Crown and my Kingdom to protect Sookie. You once protected her from a vampire trying to kill her. Will you not help me protect my Mate once again?”

He begs Godric in the one way he knows the Elder would understand more than any other.

Eric hates being on his knees before anyone. In fact, once he had found out what it meant to the younger vampire, Godric had ordered him to never bend his knee for anybody unless he wished to do it. Since he has so far only knelt before two people, Godric and Sookie, his Maker will know what it means when he kneels before him. He will do whatever is needed to protect his Mate.

Blinking at him, Godric asks, “Are you Bonded?” His mind is turning, churning away.

Feeling hopeful for once, Eric nods his head lightly. “Twice-bonded. Last night was the second, and once we have time, I will finish the Bond with her.” He offers all this information on the chance that it may be the thing that will sway his Maker.

Godric looks at him, and then turns slightly to look at Sookie. He watches her for a moment, then finally tells Eric, “Bond with her in front of me, and I will come through.”

Eric blinks and turns to look at his Mate. Sookie nods and, moving toward him, says, “It’s a small price. We were already going to do it anyway, so why not now? Why not go ahead and do it for a cause that will make us both happy?”

He cups her cheek, and then stands up to bend down to her. He looks over and asks Brandon, “Will you retrieve the knife?”

Brandon nods, and is gone in the next second. Eric looks down to her and lets her know, “I want it all, Lover. I wish for you to hand me the knife, and be Pledged to me. After I accept the knife, I will use it to seal our Bond, to become one with you in every way I can. Then as soon as I can marry you the human way, we will. But I wish to show you how dedicated I am to you, how much I love you. Will you do this?”

She sobs, and nods a yes to him. He smiles, and pulls her close.

The rest of the Family grins at each other, proud to be able to witness the joining of their line to their Mother’s.

Brandon comes back with the knife on its pillow and Eric tells her, “All you have to do is take the knife. You can kiss the blade before you give it to me or not. Once I take it, once I kiss the blade, we are then Pledged by the Knife. Then I will take the knife and cut myself so that you can drink from me, and then I will either cut you, or bite you.”

She swallows and, after accepting the hanky passed to her by Aisling who is still standing behind Eric, wipes her face clean of the tears from earlier. “Does it matter?”

Eric says nothing, and Brandon just tells her, “He has given you the choices, and cannot say anything else. None of us can. This must come from your heart, Sookie. Choose.”

She stares at Eric, then reaches out to take the knife. She brings the blade to her lips and kisses it, then hands it to Eric. He accepts it, then kisses it too.

The blade starts glowing, and Eric kneels before her, bringing the knife to cut himself as she watches. Once he makes the cut on his neck, she takes his hand holding the knife and guides it to her neck.

Without reacting, Eric pulls her head to his neck, and jolts as she takes his blood. He waits a second, until he can feel his blood entering her system, and then cuts her with the knife.

In that second, with both of their blood on the blade and then on their lips, a bright white light bursts from the two of them, and the sound of a bell rings out.

No one mortal in the room can stare into the brilliant light surrounding their Fader and Mother. But Godric, as a Being not fully on either plane, does, and smiles as his terms are fully met. He then feels the flood of the Bonds that he had left behind crash back into him as he Crosses to the Earthly plane once again.

His eyes close, and he can feel both Sookie and Eric in his Bonds. He also feels more than he did before, and cannot stop the joy that spreads throughout him as their light travels down the Bonds and flows through him. He glows as they do, and from them the room becomes blindingly white.

The next moment the light dies, and Godric is standing there, more vivid that he was before. He looks over at Eric and Sookie, and sees Sookie passed out and being cradled in Eric’s arms. He calls out, “Min Dotter,” amazed by the information he has just received.

Eric looks up at him. “Godric?”

He smiles at his Son, his Brother, his Father. “I am back. And you have married my Daughter.”

Blinking, Eric tries to make sense, and Frey cautiously walks forward. “Because she married Eric, you mean?”

Godric shakes his head, an impish look to his face, one that Eric has not seen for centuries. “No. She is of me. With the Mating Bond fully formed, I can sense her, and she is mine. I did not understand why I was driven to bring you two together, but I had suspected you were Mated.”

This was also why he had been so angry about the attack on her in the Fellowship, as well as the attacks on her in the nest. He can even see how, after that attack, he had felt worse, as though he had not achieved anything. Was it because some part of him recognized his failure in protecting one of his own?

Instantly he moves in front of them, and looks down with love at the daughter he had not realized he had still alive. Unlike Eric, he had no chance to watch over his bloodline after his Turning. It was only due to these particular circumstances, him coming back and the two being soul mates, that he knows now. Otherwise, it would have taken him tasting her to discover it.

Eric chuckles, and, even though she is still down for the count, he tells his lover in his arms, “You have gained one of the most powerful Vampires as your Guardian…and one of the best Fathers to ever have. You are going to be loved in every way.” She will be so spoiled – his grin gets bigger as he realizes that his Mate will be loved more than she has ever been in her life.

Frey claps his Fader on his shoulder. “Congratulations, Fader.” He looks down at the woman who is now so important to the Family and the Clan.

Eric grins at his Son, and nods his head. “Tell the Clan. I will be caring for her until she wakes.”

He nods and leaves. Godric watches him go, then notices the woman behind Eric, and stares at her.

The rest of Eric’s Sons come up to congratulate their Fader on his marriage to their Mother, all thrilled that she is theirs now.

However, Godric continues to stare at the woman behind Eric.

Soon they have the room brought back to normal, with the desk being set up by Gainor and Griffon. Eric moves to their throne, still holding his Mate tenderly in his arms.

Godric is still watching the woman, and now she’s watching him, too.

Settling back into his chair, Eric looks to the side, then looks again down the room to where Godric is, and notices his staring at Aisling, and how she’s looking back at him. He frowns, trying to figure out what is going on, and finally asks, “Godric?”

Godric never looks away from the woman in front of him as he answers, “Yes?”

“Is there something wrong with my Wife’s assistant?”

Godric blinks.   He looks at the woman, then Eric, then back to the woman.

The whole room has stopped, and is looking at Godric.

He turns his head sideways and asks, “Are you one of Eric’s?”

She nods. “Aisling Northman.”

He shakes his head slowly, and then moves in front of her. He cups her face softly, and then he kisses her as the room just stares at them in shock.

After he stops to allow her to breathe, he looks down to her. “I apologize. If I had known, I would have never left. I gave up the hope of finding you long ago. Will you forgive me, mein gefahrte?”

Final count:  3,259 words.


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  1. Casper22

    Yay, so pleased Godric is finally back and seemingly mated to Aisling!
    Fantastic writing as always
    Best Wishes

  2. Lisa Kisner

    Great chapter Wendy, I love that Godric found his mate and he found that Sookie is part of his line.

  3. E. B. Rhome


  4. suzyq591suzy

    So is she Sookies mother? Can’t wait to find out how Sookie is Godrics daughter. 🙂

  5. geenakmom

    Oh this chapter has me so happy! Godric is back! Eric and Sookie thrice bonded and Pledged! Godric has found his mate! *happy dancing*

  6. ccgnme

    Awesome! Godric is back and he found his mate, I love it!!

  7. lzdiva4

    Interesting developments. I need more information so I can truly understand all the relationships that have come about in this chapter. Still entranced!!

  8. duckbutt60

    Hmmm….did somewhere along the line one of Godric’s descendants mated with a fairy? And…looks like Godric now has his mate.

    Personally, I think Godric was not rejected, but was in God’s “waiting room”. An omniscient God would know he was going back, so he had him cooling his heels until the “call” came. If God had let Godric into heaven, I doubt very seriously Godric would have wanted to leave. But as an added bonus, God fixed him up with his mate 🙂 Yeah…that’s my story 🙂

    • lorip100

      Loved your train of thought and was thinking something similar ‘ the waiting room ‘ being stuck in limbo due to uncompleted tasks he has yet to fulfil .

  9. baronessjai

    Awe and he finds his mate. …i love this story. … see ya next chapter 😉

  10. The Queen of all that is Delicious

    Great chapter, I’m so glad Godric is back with them. I’m sure Sookie will be thrilled to know she is of Godric’s line and he will be so helpful in her growth into her role in their clan. So happy that Godric found his mate and will have even more reasons for staying alive and with them all. Can’t wait for the next installment of this.

  11. gabbieannie

    great chappie! love Godric! One thing I got bashed on when writing my ff….Min Kompis is the kind of mate like buddy, or friend. I was told by a reader from Sweden.

  12. mom2goalies

    Amazing chapter and mind boggling twists! Will be hard waiting for next update.

  13. tleel

    oh oh more more, hurry hurry, let us know Godric found his soul mate, please let us know that is what aisling is to godric.

    • tleel

      just finished re-reading this story, can hardly wait for when you get back to updating it.

      • Kittyinaz

        Don’t worry, Rissa the CB is already mentioning it o me. With her in your corner, you get results…

  14. 71greenvelvet

    Yay – Godric’s back! What a fabulous chapter! Thanks so much for the update. 😀

  15. shewhoteaches

    Love this story. So different plus it has Godric back. Looking forward to the next chapter

  16. murgatroid98

    Oh my gosh. That was so awesome. I would love to know more about Godric’s relationship to Sookie. And it appears there is someone for Godric after all. Excellent. I look forward more once the puppy is better.

  17. Lynn

    Doing my happy dance cause Godric is back! Whoa!

  18. gabby

    It seems like Godric just found his mate?
    That is so awesome. And if he wasn’t 100% about staying before he sure will be now.

  19. galwidanatitud

    YES! YES! YES! goody, goody, goody! *jumping up and down*
    note: i think my husband is about ready to have me committed 😉

    excellent chapter! he’s baaaack…..

  20. Kerry

    So happy Godric is staying around and he’s Sookie’s father and not mate I love Godric but love only Eric and Sookie as mates.

  21. ericluver

    I checked “min kompis” on Google translate and it told me “my buddy” 😀
    I think Aisling will turn out to be a little more than Godric’s “buddy”. Hehe! 😉

  22. saintsfan022010

    I have always liked Godric. I think the way Alan Hyde played him with such quiet dignity and strength was terrific. I also am anxious to see how Sookie is related.

  23. vampsexual

    An amazing f’in chapter!!!!! Not saying the rest weren’t cause they were!

  24. Jackie69

    Great chapter! Godric is back and Eric/Sookie are pledged /bonded…Godric has found a mate .Hurray!

  25. Nia

    Yay Godrics back and it looks like he found his mate and a living member of his own family 🙂

  26. gwynwyvar

    Yay for the bond being complete.
    Love the desk drama lol
    So Sookie is one of Godrics human(ish) descendants? Nice!

    And woohoo for Godric finding his mate!!!!

  27. lorip100

    Your story is gold . One of the most unpredictable stories I’ve read and your casting is just the cherry to top off everything .

  28. foxgoddess07

    wow what a head trip. that was great update soon.

  29. Loftin

    I love it! Did Godric just find his mate, his wife?? Yes!!!

  30. angelicedg

    Awesome chapter! I am so happy for Godric 🙂

  31. Heather

    Just found this story, And I have to say it is now one of my favorites!!!! Love it!!

  32. nedbella

    Just finished all 17 chapters and OMG! what an amazing story. Such originality. I’m astounded at how many better writers there are for the TB characters. Just imagine how much better the show would have been if they had you all writing for them. Can’t wait for more.

  33. Tracey

    Just found you, ironically your post on the Brat FB page led me 5 you, just devoured this story, hoping like crazy you plan to continue it.

  34. eaaustin85

    Awesome past few updates!!!! Stay I haven’t been on WordPress in a while, I got burnt out on reading n then the holidays hit, but I’m back….please update soon. This is my favorite story by you.

    • eaaustin85

      Correction: Stay was meant to be Sorry

  35. msbuffy

    Welcome back to Godric, and what a welcome! This is SO good! I thought it was getting updated today, but I must have been mistaken. Not a problem because I got to catch up on all the chapters anyway! Fabulous!

  36. Eric is Mine

    Wow. Just wow. So excited to see what happens next!

  37. Dinah

    I absolutely loved it can’t wait for the next chapter please update soon.

  38. Eve

    When is this story going to be updated?? It’s too good to be left unfinished!

    • Kittyinaz

      I’m working on getting everything done and then I will be working on my novel and side projects. It’s on my list to be one of the first to be updated.

  39. Tynee23

    So looking forward to the next update. Thanks

  40. Eric is All Mine

    Wow. That was an epic event…and I’m intrigued by Godric’s discovery

  41. anem72

    Eric sent me to tell you that I love your stories. I do.

  42. bannerdawn

    Omg nooooooo!!!!!!! Say it isn’t so no next chapter, you just can’t leave us hanging like wow what a twist Sookie being of Godrics bloodline please please update soon it looks like it’s been a while since your last update you haven’t abandoned this one have you…….fingers crossed you will update soon can’t wait for more

  43. gaijinvamp

    That was the most exciting chapter I’ve read in ages! Godric back from the dead. Finds a daughter then a mate. Two good reasons to stay. Eric & Sookie finish their bond and pledge by the knife. Both become stronger. Will Eric become telepathic now? This story is so creative. You have outdone yourself. I hope you find the time to update soon, there is so much more to come.

  44. aolani08

    I am so glad I found this story it is beautiful……..please continue to update……….I love the suspense and the cliff hangers keep me wanting more……..thank you

  45. Lynn

    Love this story, I hope that you continue it.

  46. Natalie McGinn

    Please tell me there’s an update soon!!!! So freaking fantastic!

  47. spaztasticalmaiden13

    So I finally found this story and now I’m all caught up. This is awesome! I love all the twists you made with Eric’s background and how you changed Sookie without really changing her too much. I was so excited to see Godric too because i just love him. I can’t wait to see what you have in store for everyone! Enjoy your holiday to the desert and come back with lots of updates for us!

  48. Elizabeth

    This is the best story ever! I just finished re-reading all 17 chapters for the third time to keep it fresh in my mind and ready for the next update. I for one would be happy with a filler chapter with little or none plot advancement. You are a brilliant writer and this story really shows off your creativity.

  49. ljhjelm

    This story is an epic adventure and love story. I can’t wait to see more.

  50. murgatroid98

    I would so love to see more of this one.

  51. steffet

    I really love your stories and can’t wait to see what happens next with this one.

  52. loveallsvmtb

    I Love it. The new post in your comments section on the chapters page are perfect. Thank you for all your writing..


    Everytime I read this I just fall more in love with this story! Hope you continue it one day 🙂

  54. hjr949806

    I just found this story, and I love it! Will you be finishing it or has it been abandoned? I sure hope you decide to update again, it’s an amazing story and I love how you’ve created tons of new characters, they are all so interesting!

    • Kittyinaz

      It’s not abandoned, just yo much going on! 🙂

      • hjr949806

        I love it! I am working my way through your other stories now, you are so talented!

  55. autumnchild26

    My dear i humbly request that you in the near future update this.I have read so many of your stories and others. I find myself impatiently waiting as a child on Christmas morning. Please eager mind and waiting hearts want to know.
    Your friend Autumn <3

  56. Angelica Theroux

    I can’t tell you how many times I’ve come back to read this story. This is one of my absolute favorite fanfics. Will you be adding a new chapter soon? I hope so!!! Much love and positive vibes

    • Kittyinaz

      Me too!! Just need to finish the OF so that I have some free time to do so!

  57. duckbutt60

    I do hope you’re feeling better –do know that the folks here that eagerly follow your stories are behind you, encouraging you, praying for you….. Do hope you update this story –I can’t wait to see where you and your muse will take it —

    • Kittyinaz

      I finally finished this chapter. I am hoping to be able to write more on it, but I have other stuff. But I did finish the next chapter.

  58. geenakmom

    Just did a re-read and fell in love with this story all over again. Looking forward to more when they come. Happy Holidays!!

  59. jewelpearl

    In anticipation of your promised update, I went back and read this from the beginning. Again, well done!

  60. RJ

    Cant wait for the next instalment, have re-read this again and can’t wait for it to be continued.

  61. redneckmodern

    I really need more of this story…I love it….

  62. desireecarbenell

    I hope you do not forget this one also. It is too good to languish

  63. fallon2017F


  64. alishasdean

    Loving this story. Hoping for a continuation. 🙂

  65. gwynwyvar

    Sookie is descended from Godric.
    Godric is back
    Godric has quite possibly found his mate!

    Your stories are never boring my dear 🙂

  66. lzdiva4

    Has Godric found his mate too?


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